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Hello Everyone I’m Finally back home!… I want to Thank all of you for all your good thoughts and wishes for my Aunt and her surgery…Everything turned out great and she’s recovering really well…The week that I’ve been away has been really difficult ….Not just b/c I was worried about my Aunt’s Surgery but, b/c I’ve been fighting some really hard cravings…..Being out of town and away from the comfort zone of my own home…It was like every where I turned I was surrounded by every food that I “LOVE” to eat…Especially when Jordon and I went to see the new “MIAMI VICE” movie..Oh My Goodness!!!!!…I think “THAT”theater sold every food under the sun…lol…Hot dogs, Cheeseburgers….I was like what happened to only selling popcorn and candy???…lol…Everything just smelled so good…it was so intoxicating I wanted it so badly…BUT……….I’m happy to say…Since I’ve been gone I’ve stayed 100%…”On Point“!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn’t slip not once!!! Not even a little nibble of bad foods touched my lips!!! So, as my reward for giving 100%…The scale has gone down 5 MORE POUNDS!!!…So, my E.O.M.W (end of month weight) is 234 lbs…Which is a total of 78 lbs lost from my beginning weight of 312 lbs!!!…I know I still have a loonnggg way to go…but,…it feels so good to know that “I” can actually do this… To know that I’ve not cheated at all on my “SELF CHALLENGE” and that for the first time in my life I’m really giving this EVERY THING in me!!!….…It is such an Amazing Feeling!!!……..I’m gonna go and catch up everyone’s blog…Have A Great Day Guys and Thank you all again for wishing my Aunt well….

~There will always be days when you are tempted to quit your diet….But, before you take that first bite of forbidden food…Think about how far you’ve come…and what goal weight that you’ve set for yourself…Don’t let a moment of weakness ruin a weeks worth of hard work.~

                                                (DAY 17 OSC)

Hello Everyone…I just found out this morning that my Aunt is having surgery…So, I’m going to take this next flight out so, that I can make it to her before she goes in the hospital…I don’t have a lot of time so, this will be short…But, I wanted to come on to let you guys know why I won’t be here…I’m going to miss you guys while I’m gone..I should be back home Friday if all goes well…So, Everyone Stay On Track and Take Care…~Jhonica~

My Week has started of so Great!!! Ok first and formost My A/C is fixed!!!!…You guys won’t believe this…But, the A/C guy I called last week tried to “SCAM” us!!! We don’t need a whole new unit after all…We got a second opinion and the 2nd guy told us that who ever came out the first time “Lied”…He said our unit is fine and within 15 mins our A/C was back on!!! I was like OMG!!! Some people will “Try” to rob you blind!!! Thank goodness I won’t have to spend 3500 dollars on a new unit…Now I can spend it on some new shoes!!!….lol...lol...lol……Just kidding!!!…lol….OH and more Good News!!! Even though Today isn’t my weigh in day… This morning I decided to try on a pair of jeans I’ve not worn in 2yrs and to my “Surprise!!! ”..they fit!!! That never fails to BRIGHTEN my day!!! So, of course I had to do the Beyonce’ Booty Dance!!!...….in the mirror…lol….lol…Can you guys telll I’m in a Super Duper Good Mood Today!!!……I also stayed 100% “On Point” All Weekend!!! Which let me tell ya wasn’t the easiest thing to do…Especially not with “THOMAS“..being here…Ugh…But, I resisted every urge to bite or even nibble anything bad! I’m serious about giving myself 100%…I’m now day 10 into My Self Challenge and Going Strong!!! Since I’ve not been on line all weekend I’m gonna go and catch up on everyone’s blog! Have A Great Day Guys!!!

~To restrain yourself, To discipline yourslelf, is to take control of yourself. It means making decisions with your mind, rather than your appetite. it means being the master of your own life.~

                                                     (DAY 10 OSC)

Well, I just finished all my “Workouts”…Thank goodness b/c it’s starting to warm up!…And, nope my A/C still isn’t fixed...They’re going to have to replace the whole unit…He said he’s going to have to tear this out and that out and I’m like????? All that???….So, it all boils down to…Having to go all Weekend without A/C and having to pay 3500 dollars to get it done on Monday……………….I’m so not looking forward to spending money on that…..Ugh! But, it has to be done b/c I can’t go the rest of the summer in this sweltering heat……Anyway On to a more positive subject…I’ve stayed 100% “On Point” All  week!!!No matter what crisis was thrown my way! I didn’t give in to the urge to binge……The “Old Me” would have had a “HUGE” Carb Binge with all that has gone wrong this week… But, that chick is long gone!!!!.…lol…..I’ve a New and Improved Attitude!!!...Not everyday is going to be stress free and I’ve learned to learn to deal with things in a more positive and productive way…I’m finally controling my weight Instead of it controling me and it feels so good to be “In Control”….. Have A Great Weekend Guys!!!…

~Focus on the positive, An optimist has no brakes, And a pessimist has no motor~                                              

                                             (Day 7 OSC)

I just finished my ” Morning Workouts”…and I’m so Tired…Today was harder than usual b/c my air conditioning is out!!!!!!!! It was so hot when I woke up this morning I was like “What the???”…But, I had to workout anyway…There was no way  I was going to let a little heat stop me from staying 100% “On Point”…The A/C guy will be here around noon which is great b/c I have a Dentist Appt at 2pm...So, hopefully he’ll be done quickly…Any way guys..I need to get off here and start getting ready…I’ll comment on everyone’s blog once I get back home…:-)Have A Great Day Everyone!

~Dont ever lose your focus..Keep a clear vison of your fitness goals and refuse to give time or energy to negative distractions~

                                                                                              (Day 6 OSC)

I’m very late blogging today…but, the good news is I got a lot of sleep last night and this morning…lol..lol...I didn’t wake up until 10am!!! Which isn’t something I do often…Hmm but, I’m thinking maybe I should…b/c I felt pretty refreshed when I finally did wake up…lol…Anyway…As you all can see the in the subject line of my blog is “SELF CHALLENGE“… I’ve decided to do a Self Challenge where I go 63 straight days “On Point”without messing up at all!!!…For me a day where I’m 100% “On Point” is…Working out at “Least 2hrs”, Eating within my calorie/carb limit, and, last but, not least…Not eating after 7:30pm…I’m already day 5 into my “Self Challenge” and, so far I’m doing great!!!..But, this is only day 5…lol…The reason for it only being 63 days is b/c I have a Party that I’m going to attend and I’d really love to look my best!!! Yes, I’m aware that’s a pretty vain reason to give 100% but, I’m only Human...lol… Plus, I have “Never” gone that many days without going over my calorie limit…or without cheating just a little…And, yes I know we all should have days when we allow ourselves a little indulgence but,…I want to do this challenge for myself just to see IF I can do it…To See What I’m Really Made Of…..Anyway I just wanted to share with you guy what I’m doing…I’m so late blogging I’ll be surprised if anyone even reads this today…lol….Well, I’m on my way out so I’ll be back to catch up on everyone’s blog later this evening!!!

~Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels~                       (Day 5 OSC)

Last night I couldn’t sleep at all…I don’t know what it was but…I kept waking up starring at my Casablanca Palace Canopy Net…Try saying that fast 5 times in a row..(I did) over and over..lol…Nothing I did put me to sleep last night…lol…And even when I did finally close my eyes..They didn’t stay closed for long…So, it was no surpise that I was up before my alarm went off this morning…I’ve done my 90 mins of Tae-bo, 45 mins on my bike, and I’ve done Pilates…All before 8am!!!…lol…I just feel so wired and excited…I’m only 39.5 lbs away from being in the 100’s…After being 200+ pounds over 8 years…Just visualizing me in the 1’s is just so Mindblowing…I don’t know how many of you guys can relate to what I’m saying but,…this is so HUGE for me…In my past attempts to lose weight I could NEVER visualize myself even getting close to 100 anything…I just didn’t believe in myself…I was in such a bad place back then…Which is why I’m able to have such a positive mentality now..B/c I’ve been to the bottom and there was no where else for me to go but up….I really feel like this year is (DIFFERENT) from all my failed attempts….I finally, truly feel like no matter what…is thrown at me… I’m not going to give up on myself…Yes, it’s going to take more than a year from now to reach my goal weight…I know that…I also know that I will hit rough patches and not everyday will be an easy one…But, Everything In me tells me that I’m going to succeed…And, that is such an Amazing feeling…It’s INDESCRIBABLE:-)….Have A Great Day Guys!!!…

~Refuse to accept defeat as final..Resolve to reach your goals in spite of setbacks…You will be a healthier, happier person.~

I haven’t weighed in 2 weeks b/c I thought I’d try what Lidija does which is weighing every two weeks…So, This morning when I stepped on the scale I was surprised to see that I’ve lost 6 pounds…I’m close enough to my mini goal that I can see it in the distance…lol…..…Aside from the good news on the scale……I was looking in my journal and I just realize I’ve worked out for 8 days straight…So, I’m taking today off as my rest day…I defianlty don’t want to over do it and end up injuring myself…I’m just so use to working out that…I sometimes forget to take a day off…lol….But,..today I will relax and just enjoy my day off from working out…..Char wanted to know what I bought when I went shopping Friday..after I paid the bills…..Well….lol…Since we were going boating…I bought three outfits and three pairs of shoes….Then of course I had to stop by Victoria’s Secret:-).……Then from there I went to Bath and Body Works!!! Time you step in the store…The smells are so intoxicating!!! So,…..lol….I ended up buying way more than I had planned…But, it was so worth it b/c our weekend was Wonderful...!!!! Anyway…I’m gonna go and catch up on everyone’s blog…Have A Great Day Guys!!!…

~The secret to staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age!…lol…~

I’m extremely late blogging…But, Today I’ve been So Busy with Working out…Then I had to go pay bills..Then of course I had to go shopping for me!!!  Anytime I go pay a bill I have to buy me “Something” to make my day a little brighter…lol…lol…lol..Anyway…..I almost didn’t make it on line…But, I had to come on to wish all my Buddies A Happy Weekend!!!…Jordon and I are going Boating!!!! On A Mochi Craft MaxiDolphin 74 I’ts so nice Guys!!!…It’s not ours but, we’re getting it “borrow” it for this weekend!!!…So…I’m very excited about that…It’s going to be nice to go and get away all weekend!!!…Anyway…let me go check up on everyone’s blog for today…Everyone Be Safe and Have A Great Weekend !!!

If anyone has ever read more than one of my blogs…You guys know I have a pretty positive out look on this diet / lifestyle change situation…I know first hand that it takes Discipline, Determination, Persistance and Time to achieve real permanent weightloss…Ok so…we had a family gathering last night with most of my cousins and Aunts and Uncles…And, we were all at the dinner table eating…And, a few of my family members commented on how much weight I’ve lost…And, they asked me how I was doing it…So, I told them that I workout At least 2hrs everyday No matter what…I also told them about what I eat and so forth…Well, one of my cousins from out of town…Spoke up and said..”With all of that working out..You’d think You’d be Smaller Than That!..And “Everyone” got “Quiet”……At first of course I was shocked that she came out of her mouth like that…But, I smiled…Looked her dead in the eye and told her….I know what I’m doing and I have realistic, weightloss expectations..I said I’m not expecting to be “thin” overnight just b/c I workout hard…And, I also told her I’m sorry you feel the need to “Try” to bring me down…Just to build yourself up!!!…She didn’t say another word to me the rest of the night……lol….I guess she thought she could “Steal My Joy”…But,…Nope!!!…I’m very proud of what I’ve accomplished and how far I’ve come…I have enough self esteem to share with 10 women!!! And, I won’t let anyone bring down my positive mentality!!!…You guys have a Great Day and Don’t let anyone “Try and Steal Your Joy”!!!

~What we get by reaching our goals is not nearly as Important as what we Become by reaching them~